You laugh, but I feel a heavy lump in my throat. 🥺Last night I dreamed that I won. I thought the same thing would happen in reality, but it didn't. It was a very bitter incident. I still haven't been able to come to terms with it. I had planned to spend it, and I was going out with my girlfriend tomorrow. Now I'm thinking about what lie I should tell her and cancel tomorrow's date. 😂😭😂😭