After 8 plus years of living in the comfort of community in Colombia, I have made the life decision to move to my land solo. There are many reasons, but the biggest one is a deep, deep desire to be in close relation with the land that I have been entrusted to take care of. Wherever else I put my time and energy just doesn't feel like the right place.

For 2 and a bit years, I have taken care of this land as best I can. It's only a 30-minute walk away from my community, but it got to a stage where the place I wanted to spend most of my time was the place I was spending the least of my time.

This feeds into many aspects of my life and where I am at right now. This feeling and need to live on purpose every single second of the day, this desire to let go of "comfort" that keeps me a little sedate and confined, to develop a deeper connection and relationship with the Earth and God, to physically experience a sense of safety through being in good relation with the Earth rather than through receiving money.

This is a big one, actually. Over these nearly 5 years of being on this Bitcoin journey, I could say I have become a little preoccupied with the need to generate economic resources and preserve them in Bitcoin. I have undertaken and exposed myself to months of fiat nonsense at the expense of being in deep communion with the Earth and God. I lost sight of the magic, the mystery, the synchronicities and signs of something far more divine than the safety net of getting paid every week.

Whilst I do not point the finger at Bitcoin, and in fact regard Bitcoin as one of the best spiritual teachers I have ever had, my time has come to return to faith and belief in the Great Spirit and the adage that when I do things that I love, when I consistently make that choice over and over again, I shall receive everything I need, and most likely way more.

Being in close connection with the land provides ample examples and opportunities to remember this truth. As I build more and more sustainable systems within the ecosystem, the more the land can give, and the more the land can give, the more I can give. It's a reciprocal arrangement.

And I cannot wait to be back with my land, to the extent that I am now making this jump to be there full time. To leave behind having all my meals cooked for me 6 days a week, to let go of the constant flow of great people coming into my life there, to let go of the easy access to sharing great music and special moments around the fire with these people. It all has to go as I start this new adventure.

I have been floating along for too long, maybe 4 years of not being truly on point. It feels good to step to an edge, to take full custody of my time and energy, to become the master of my time allocation, to put it exactly where I wish at any given moment.

This excites me a lot. It also excites me to bring forth my dream of planting and harvesting a seriously delicious cacao direct from my land and my own PoW! I cannot wait to present this cacao to the world.

To wake every day to these trees and watch them grow brings up feelings of fatherhood and what it must feel like watching your kids grow. This I also want, and maybe this process of taking care of these trees, being highly present each day, providing a good and healthy environment for their growth, is the training ground for this. Let's see!

Beneath that excitement sits a lot of fear. A deep fear of being alone, a fear of being inside my own echo chamber, of losing contact with humanity, of becoming a hermit, a recluse. I enjoy solitude. I enjoy meditating and being in silence, going inwards. I love working the land. I fear I could work myself into the ground (although this is the eventual end anyway). Many little fears are rising to the surface in these days before the big move.

Change is inherently difficult. The ego does not like change. It is kicking and screaming and pulling on any data from the archives it can find to add sufficient levels of fear to keep me locked in the status quo, to not step outside the box. But I see its game, and the game is up.

My heart chooses the most magnificent expression of life, and that is to return to the land and live in accordance with the rhythm of nature, to bow down before her and surrender to something far greater than my likes and dislikes.

For sure, it's a case of humbling myself. There will be no fridge, no NutriBullet, no electricity even for a while. Just me, the fire, and taking care of the one who gives me everything I need.

And praying hard that soon a beautiful family shall be birthed from this sacred land.

What's the point of growing all this cacao if I can't share it with my beautiful wife and kids after all!

I shall keep you all abreast of how this move goes and i look forward to documenting the PoW on the ground so you can enjoy the journey with me.

Big love to all! x