amongst me being sidetracked from this growing little blog of mine, i thought it was time for me to finally come clean:

over the past month of being away from my novel, i've taken it upon myself to shelf her. for now. no edits, developments, rereads, people reading it, revisions, the whole nine yards. this first draft was pivotal for my own growth as a writer, but i feel the most i can do with her right now is letting her rest for the time being. i wrote a whole book! that was just the first step, yet i feel in order for me to write more deeply in the contexts of the characters for its future drafts, i need to let them flow out of me vs. letting them forcefully out.

in doing so, i feel gaining more perspective and experiences for myself is also something i need to do to connect with them better. the connections are made, but no huge sparks are coming from me. it's like saying you're plugging in a charger into a socket that doesn't work. romance and coming of age novels are often derived from very IRL scenarios carried out by the main characters, and i think i'm at a place in my life where i can learn to cultivate more of those and transmute them toward their development.

i always want to strive to do and be better and to grow from the things i've done, which is why i feel this growing connection to dystopia. a challenge from my previous writing, that's for sure. but something new always brings a new sort of excitement to look forward to. i've made sure to ease into it over the past few days, versus burning myself out just for the sake of getting something done (lol also me).

anyways, yeah! maybe this time around, i will post snippets here and there of what's happening in this new project, and when i need a break, i'll come back here to brain dump on anything not involving, or maybe involving my novel shenanigans.

okie bye for nowsies, and hope to check in again soon. :,)