Vipassana-"hole". It is quite something to explore your mind scientifically and without the need for any intellectualisation or rationalisation through books and thoughts. Once you grasp the Vipassana-method, it becomes invaluable to express. Give it a try for 10 days and see for yourself. Those ten days may be the the best ten days of your life. Dhamma.org you can find courses close to you. I have also written about it in my blog kokkomaki.com.